A New Journey

So I recently cut my dreads off this past Saturday (May 19th, 2012) and now I’ve begun a new journey. For those who don’t know, I had been growing my dreads for about 1 year and 7 months. I didn’t even make it to 2 years..=( Due to improper maintenance, on top of extra stress these last few months, my dreads were really unhealthy. I had a lot that were thinning and popping off. Not to mention I had a huge patch in the back of my head where dreads were missing….yea I know right. Sounds horrible…it was.

So after trying all I could to save my dreads, I gathered the courage up to cut them off. The new cut is definitely different. I like it, I’ve gotten a lot of compliments on it, but for some reason I’m still adjusting. It’s a weird transition, but the plan is to keep it well maintained and healthy while it grows out.

Will I grow dreads again?

Honestly I’m not sure…If I do, it won’t be for a good while. I want to enjoy my hair in its natural state. I was natural before my dreads, but didn’t really enjoy it. Now that I know how to properly maintain my hair I’m better able to appreciate it being this way. Before I considered my afro to be annoying. But now, I understand the true beauty of it all, and I’m trying to embrace it fully this time around.

Even though there’s part of me still adjusting to this “new journey”, I’m actually excited to see the growth and the different stages. I’ve never been more excited to try out a consistent hair regime and different products that I’m hoping will agree with my hair. Lately, within the last 3 months I’ve actually become a natural hair “fanatic” and I’ve been doing all kinds of research. So, I’m ready to apply the knowledge.

I do want to give a quick shout out to everyone that has been supportive of my haircut. I was on the fence at first and protested cutting my dreads. I LOVED my dreads, but honestly I love healthy hair even more. I also did a post on my other blog “PopKulutr3” and it’s more detailed. I posted my regimen and the products I use. So for anyone interested check it out, I’ll be including the link below, along with a few “before & after” pictures.

Once again, I’m excited for this journey and I hope some other natural girls out there are able to relate  to me!

XOXO

Alex =)

PopKultur3 blog link: Good Hair: Chop! Chop!

BEFORE pics:

Nov. 2011
Feb. 2012

AFTER

The “new” me!
loving my makeup =)
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I am Not My Hair pt. 2

13 months ago, I made the decision to do something different for myself; I went natural. I know this may not seem like something “different” for some people, but when anything forces me to step outside my comfort zone; it’s different. At first I wasn’t sure if this would be something temporary or something more permanent. Quite frankly I wasn’t even completely confident in my decision. However, I found myself going with the flow and embracing my natural roots. Originally my intention behind going natural was to discover my inner confidence without weave. For many years I had allowed my hair to define how I felt about myself physically and I wanted to challenge myself to move beyond that mentality.

At first it wasn’t easy, I didn’t exactly feel like myself. I was used to wearing the long straight weave with my burgundy color, curled or flipped in some kind of flashy style. I wasn’t used to rocking the fro and owning the look as my own. Most of the time when I wore a fro, I would usually wear a hat to cover what I thought was a tragic mess; and it mostly meant I was in between hairstyles.  I received some criticism and it took me a while to realize at the end of the day hair is simply hair. And all you can do is embrace what you have and make it work for you.

So last September that’s exactly what I did. I began growing locks, and I haven’t turned back since then. There have been a few times I’ve missed the weave and thought about going back. There have even been times where I told myself I was crazy for trying to grow locks. But in the last 8 months, I’ve come along way and I’m better able to embrace my locks. I still have some people who say they aren’t for me and they’re entitled to their opinion. I’m also learning I can’t spend my life trying to be what other people want me to be.

I like the idea of my locks because it’s taken me out of my comfort zone and forces me to challenge myself. I don’t want to live my life always thinking “what if” Sometimes it doesn’t hurt to get out there and just do something even when you think it sounds a little crazy. In some ways I’ve found the courage to not limit myself in what I do. I’d much rather think outside the box than follow convention and be bored with the norm. The older I get, the more I realize that maybe being different isn’t so bad after all.

I am NOT my hair =)

So this blog is probably going to be the first blog I’ve posted outside of my normal spiritual blogs so to speak. This blog is just a simple explanation about a recent decision I made to finally wear my natural hair. First off, I’ve been natural since 8th or 9th grade, Im not “just going natural”. I’ve just been hiding it under weave all these years! And truth be told, I never had enough confidence  to just wear my natural hair. For a long time I only felt comfortable wearing weave.

All my life, even when I was little I struggled with my natural hair. It’s always been nappy and hard to manage. I was used to getting it straigthnened with the hotcomb etc. Well my mom tried to put a perm in my hair when I was about 6 and it’s been a struggle ever since then. A couple of times I’ve tried perms and everytime, it’s been a FAILURE. My hair ends up breaking off and my edges…you know the rest.

So I haven’t had a perm since I was in 8th or 9th grade and since then I’ve just been wearing weave. While in college, this past April I reached a point where I realized, all my confidence was in the weave and not in me and who I was. So I decided to just wear my natural hair and take a chance. At first it was kinda hard to adjust. I didn’t exactly feel like me because I was used to wearing weave.  That’s where my confidence came from. But within a month I became more comfortable in my skin than I had been in a long time.

I  just didn’twant people to think I did this for “fashion”. No, I had a legit reason. I needed to know personally that Im still the same me with or without the weave. I was tired of defining myself based on my hair. I didn’t want to spend all my life hiding behind weave.  I had to redefine my own personal defintion of beauty. And Im not saying it hasnt been hard. Ive had a few days where I was like shoot…I don’t know if I can keep this up. But so far I’ve been able to stick it out. It’s still fairly new to me. And yes Ive had some negative criticism, seems like my family members kind of disowned me…but well WHATEVER. Family can’t define ME either.  Im learning that at the end of the day my confidence is not found in things of the world. All I need to know is that I am who God says I am and I was created with HIS purpose in mind.