TD Jakes: Destiny Series “FOCUS”

This series by TD Jakes has been such a blessing. He is speaking so much truth in his message. He’s truly helping me to get it together. He is serving up the truth raw and uncut.

He says a mouthful that I’m still digesting and it’s building on top of the first message. This is something I encourage you to watch more than once to allow it to fully sink in. The meat of this word will fill you up if you can be open to the truth.


SUB30: Total Whine

I missed SUB30 on it’s new night this year. However, I had a chance to watch the message online today and it was great. Pastor Clay touched on some good stuff. This is a great message to start the new year off for SUB30. I especially enjoyed the” spiritual treadmill” analogy! I definitely needed to hear this. #SUB30 #celebrationchurch

01/11/15 – SUB30 – Pastor Clay Baird – Total Whine from Celebration Church on Vimeo.

Staying Encouraged

All week I have been listening to Joel O’Steen and Joyce Meyers while at work, and let me just tell you how much of a blessing it has been. Listening to them as I do work, help plant mental seeds to help my mind to reflect constantly on God’s word for my life. I know for many people who come in and out of office, it may just seem like background noise, but these messages have been really encouraging all week long.

I’ve been listening to messages focused on letting go of the past and letting go of negative mindsets you’ve had about yourself because of your past. I promise, each sermon has been a blessing. Everytime I hear the word, I become empowered about the way in which I think of my own past. Everyday their sermons have challenged me to grow more in my faith and shed off something from my past. It’s been great, truly a blessing.

I know to watch or listen to a video may seem like a small deal for some people, but it reminds me of the verse that says “Faith come by hearing.” With all the commotion that goes on in a day, I have to learn to keep my heart, mind and ears guarded, and these videos have been helping me in that area.

I encourage you to visit youtube and look up some of their sermons. Below I’ve listed the links to a few of my favorite ones:

Joyce Meyer “Your Words Affect Your Future Part 2” :

Joyce Meyer “Your Words Affect Your Future Part 1”

Joel O’Steen “You are Not Damaged Goods”

Joel O’steen “Move Forward”

May these videos be just as much of a blessing to you as they were for me.


The Search that Begins Within…

The funny thing about love is that for everyone it’s something different.  But it turns out most of us are simply in love with the idea of love, but not as willing to put in the work to make it happen. True love doesn’t come easy. Sure there’s the first initial attraction, and the trial period of bliss, but when reality sets in, you realize love is something you have to work at.

Most of us spend half our lives on a journey looking for something that begins within ourselves.  In order to truly enjoy love in the natural it’s something that must first be learned in the spiritual. By this I mean love begins with loving ourselves and loving God. 

Loving God will allow you to have a new-found self-confidence in being able to love yourself. God’s love is also unconditional, so even when we drop the ball, he’s still there with an outstretched hand. Love in the natural isn’t always this promising, sometimes it can come with disappointments; which is only natural because we’re humans. Humans can fall short.  But if you know the love of God, then you won’t look for love from a person to validate you. That’s what God’s love is for.

God loves  us because of who we are. He created us “as is”  for a reason; so don’t try to change it. Embrace it and use it for something with a greater purpose. Most of us never learn to love God, so we think  “love” from another person is supposed to be the thing in life that helps to “complete” us.  When you know God’s love, you are complete. Then the other person is simply there to compliment what God has already given you.

In order to experience love at its fullest, we must know God’s love first. God’s love sets the standard for what real love in the natural should be. If you aren’t careful, or if you haven’t learned true love in the spiritual, you may end up settling for something cheap. Trust me, I’ve been there, done that.  It’s no fun to sale yourself short. =(

The thing about love is that it’s not for us to go looking for. But true love is something that finds you. Think about it, none of us went looking for love from God. He found enough favor in himself to care about us, even when we didn’t.  So stop looking because most of us don’t even know what to look for. What we consider to be “love” may not always match up with what God knows to be love. Allow his spiritual love to guide you to finding that true love in the natural.

I know from  personal experience that for some people this all may be easier said than done. I’m a hopeless romantic at times so I understand the longing for companionship. There’s nothing wrong with that it’s natural. But if you aren’t grounded in God’s love first, then trust me, it’s easy to loose yourself once you do find someone you like.  What’s ultimately important to know is that, God’s love has a purpose. When you’re trying to find love in the natural, it’s important that the person you choose be someone in line with God’s purpose.  God doesn’t just place two people together without a greater purpose. There is something to be learned from every relationship. But please know, before the relationship there has to be a foundation grounded in loving yourself and knowing God’s love FIRST.

God's love is found in knowing HIS word.
1Corinthians 13:4-8 (NKJV)

  “Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;  bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. 
Love never fails…”

2010: The Year of “No”

All year long in 2010 I dealt with a lot of struggles. Most of them I had gotten myself into because I didn’t  like hearing the word “no.” I hate being told what I can have or who I can be with. I don’t like being denied the things I think are good for me, or would be beneficial in some way to my life. And it’s this kind of thinking that got me into trouble ALL YEAR LONG. I was trying to pick things out for my life, instead of allowing God to pick it for me. When God says no, he means it. I tried so many times to make things happen even when I knew God had told me no.  And most of the time it ended in disappointment, or me looking like a fool.  And every time I thought I had gotten over, there were always consequences to bare. I spent an entire year being caught up with basically ONE person.  2010 was just not my year. All the progress I thought I made was always undermined when I started doing wrong again. In 2010 I had never felt so far away from God in my life. The end of last year really made me question EVERYTHING I’ve ever believed in. I had sum very low moments. I almost felt like I had hit rock bottom. I had truly gotten away from everything I had believed in and I felt like I was a different person. Even now it’s hard for me to pick up the pieces and find my zeal I once had for God. I’ve noticed that overtime, it’s gotten a lot harder for me to obey his word. I can somtimes feel myself  becoming more stubborn and ignoring God’s word. But one thing i keep trying to remind myself as the new year has begun, is that anything good for me, God will not with hold it from me. So if he says no, most likely he’s trying to save me from a lot of pain and a lot of trouble. Also he’s trying to show me that my standard of what’s good, isn’t the same as his standard of what’s good. Leave it up to me I’m likely to make a choice because of how i feel, or because of what i see, instead of making the choice to please GOD in my decision. That was one area I dealt with all year long, being told no..CONSTANTLY it felt like. But in the end, it was all a test. Granted one I didn’t pass. But looking back I understand. If God says I can’t have something, or if he says this person isn’t for me, it shouldn’t change my whole attitude. And a lot of the times, when I was told no, it did. I felt like well, even though God is telling me no, there has to be a way that I can make it happen. But if something is not meant for you, in the end you will know. Sometimes God will allow you to experience it and then you’ll see for yourself it wasn’t for you. Then other times once you get what you want, nothing good will become of it. It will cause you more trouble than you thought just to “keep it”.  God knows what and who to allow in your life to keep you focused on his intended plan. I’m learning that everything I think is good, is actually sometimes a distraction. And distractions are a big obstacle for me. So now my task for 2011 is to get back to God and rediscover my zeal I had for him. Every time i venture off, it’s the same thing: I can’t do anything without God. With everything I been going through, it’s obvious I need him more than ever.

Faithful 2 HIS WORD & 2 You

Truly God is amazing and this week I believe God has truly shown me just how great he can be.  This week I have been challenged twice.  One challenge dealt with my past and the other with my present.

The challenge from my past involved my ex-boyfriend of two years. He waited  until a year after we broke up to confess that for the two years we were together, for the last year of our relationship he was cheating on me. And that the girl he was cheating with is now 4 months pregnant. And it wasn’t just any girl, but a girl I thought hated me because of what him and I had. I thought she was jealous of us and was always out to sabotage our relationship. Now, when I first heard the news I was shocked and a little disappointed. I had been made a fool of for a whole year! But for some reason, after I thought about the entire situation, of everything I went through with my ex, God wouldn’t allow me to be mad. Although the devil wanted to make it seem like he’d gotten the upper hand, God showed me the blessing.

If God hadn’t taken me out of that relationship then, I wouldn’t have been able to grow to where I am now. It was because of the pain from that relationship that I even made an attempt to seek God for peace and in the end I found so much more. And he also showed me, that I don’t have to settle for cheap living anymore, that his standards for me have changed. God has offered me a higher quality of living within in his will. And not only  that, but even in the midst of the relationship with everything I went through with my ex, GOD kept me. Nobody but God, because Lord knows I could be in all kinds of trouble and drama right now. But that life wasn’t for me.

Now the other challenge involves the guy that I’ve been trying to let go since January. Once again, I had been doing well, not speaking to him, not texting him and I felt like I was getting closer to finally letting him go. But yesterday I had a moment in my flesh and found myself messing with dude once again.  After the fact, I tried to brush it off, telling myself I was stupid and I needed to do better.  I thought I could just go to bed and forget about it.

But all night I couldn’t get any sleep. I was very restless and kept tossing and turning. I couldn’t get comfortable for nothing. And all the while I’m tossing and turning what I had done earlier kept running through my mind. I tried to think about other stuff so I’d go to sleep but I couldn’t. I fought with God in my thoughts for 3 hours. I woke up at 3 this morning and finally told God, I surrender.

Problem is, although I had tried to “convict” myself earlier for what I had done, I didn’t actually open my mouth and confess to God to forgive me. I hadn’t done true repentance. When I woke up, I couldn’t do anything but just cry out to God and after confessing I felt so much better. My soul wasn’t weighing as heavy. I truly felt like David, when the Bible speaks of how God’s hand weighed heavy on him until he confessed in Psalm 32: (3-5).

And it didn’t end there, I picked up my bible and went to work. God led me to passages like  Psalm 51:(1-3,6-12, 15, 17) where it talks about David asking for forgiveness of his sins. He asked God to cleanse him and put truth in his heart so that he would have a steadfast spirit to walk in the Lord’s will. God also led me to 1 Thessalonians 4: (1-7, 11-12) where it talks about how we should make it a goal to live a life that is pleasing to God; that we were not called to be part of the world’s impurities but to be set apart as a Christian.  The final passage I read was Ephesians 2: (1-10,12-14,19, 21-22) which talks about how even before we knew who God was, and we were slaves to our fleshly desires, God was still keeping us because of his undeserved favor.  It’s because of his grace, that we can even say we’re saved. We are God’s own handi-work and he created us with HIS purpose in mind. Because we are given the gift of God’s favor, we are brought closer to God and able to hear his voice when he calls.

Everything I read was an eye opener for me to wake up and see that God expects more from me. That this dude is not meant for me and that once again, I don’t have to settle for cheap living. God doesn’t just want me to settle for anyone. God wouldn’t have brought me this far, just to backtrack. And really the truth is, I stand in the way of my own deliverance because I keep going back to what he’s taken me out of.

So now that I know what I must work on, I look forward to making progress in God’s will.  I’m realizing that I’m not perfect, but when I drop the ball, God is ALWAYS there to pick it up. And no matter what, as long as I’m striving to live a life pleasing to him, GOD will not only be FAITHFUL  to his WORD but to me as well.