I know it’s been a while since I’ve written anything, but I know the Bible speaks of having a time and season for everything. (Ecclesiastes 3:1) So even when I’m away, God is still faithfully working on me and dealing with me in my own Christian walk.
Today in church, my pastor said a word that got me right together. It seems lately I’ve been feeling far off from God’s presence. For 2 weeks I haven’t been able to hear God speak clearly. This morning before church I cried because I knew I had gotten too far from God and I didn’t feel safe. All I could do was pray that God brought his presence back to me and that I never get too far from his safety.
I love when I pray on things and then confirmation follows. My pastor spoke on returning to our first love and works. Which is loving God and sharing His word with others. His entire text was Revelation 2: 1-7, but the verses that stuck with me were Revelation 2:4-5.
I realized that I had become so self-absorbed in what I wanted that I had forgotten all about God. My mind was so set on doing what I wanted to do that I had started to disregard what God had been trying to tell me. Part of my pastor’s message stressed the importance of having a relationship with God. Our relationship with God should be what matters more than anything.
Just how the Bible speaks on renewing the mind daily, (Romans12:2, Ephesians4:23) in doing that it’s also renewing my relationship with God on a daily basis so that I don’t slip away from his presence so easily. True joy is found by staying in God’s presence, anything outside of that will lead you away from him. I was beginning to lose sight of my relationship with God. I was allowing other things to come before me and him.
In closing, what stuck with me more than anything today was when my pastor said, “Without God, who should be our first love, there is no meaning in anything we do.” Without God in my life, it has no meaning. There is nothing for me outside of God’s will and that’s what I have to work on fully becoming convinced of. There are times my mind will try to tell me otherwise, but God always wins.
One thing I can say, the more I walk with God, the more he stays on me. I can never go too far. Before I could get myself in some deep, deep water before I heard God say stop. Now, it’s like the smallest prick from God can get me right together, and it doesn’t take 6 months to get back in line. It’s times like this I thank him for giving me a heart of flesh sensitive to his word. It’s not always easy, but I know it’s what I need.