John 1:5 The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.
Today I realized more than ever, that truth brings a dividing line. When you refuse to bow, and instead walk in truth people around you notice. When people notice, they either have the choice to accept the truth & grow, or leave. People are especially mad when you’ve once believed what they believe, but then God turns your light on and they are still left in darkness. Light repels darkness by nature.
“There is nothing hidden that won’t be revealed, and there is nothing secret that won’t become known and come to light.” Luke 8:17
Darkness hates light, and today at work I truly saw that. People don’t want truth like they say they do. But as a Christian, that’s all I can stand on; God’s truth and his light. And I’ve noticed that sometimes it’s not what you say, but God’s light can be seen in the choices you make. Lately I have felt like the disciples in the book of Acts, when Peter and John said “as for us, we cannot help speaking about what we have seen and heard.” (Acts4:20) When God wants to make a statement, he shines his light.
No one likes to feel exposed. No one likes to feel like the covers have been snatched off of them; believe me I get it. But I also know that when God’s light comes to expose, he wants to help you, not condemn you. I can’t tell you how many times in the last 2-3 months God has been uncovering some dark areas in my life. And even when I felt exposed and tried to run, his love would always hunt me down. I know what it feels like to be vulnerable, to be caught off guard by your own ugly truth. Sometimes I don’t think people think I have sympathy when I really do. But I also know that because I’ve been through it and can still get back up, tears and all…you can too.
My spiritual mentor has always been very big on truth and being honest with God. At first I just thought she was extra. For a while I thought, ‘let people just handle their dirt and be done with it. If they like it, I love it.’ I was never really one to fight with people about their reasoning and choices. ( Mainly because I hated when people did this to me.) But what I now understand is, that God’s truth is his love. His light in our lives is life! But I also realize, not many people walk a life where they challenge themselves to endeavour in knowing God’s truth and HIS way.
I never would’ve thought I’d reach this point in my life where it bothered me when people would make choices that didn’t reflect wisdom. And the only reason I can say this is because I’ve walked through choices where I didn’t let wisdom lead me and I paid for it all, BIG TIME! Even now I still fight sometimes to make wise choices in areas I’ve let my old man rule for so long. ( Come through relationships! The struggle..God is working on me! I die daily.) I’ve been making the conscious choice to retrain my mind when making certain choices. I’m not saying I’m perfect by any means, but what I am saying is I now understand the value of making choices with God’s light and wisdom in mind.
The last test I went through about making a wise choice, it was like God was blaring the horns at me to show me that sometimes choices can be a matter of life and death. I mean that in the sense of, if you go this way you will be led into darkness away from the light and life of God, vs. if you go this way, God can bless you for your obedience in honoring him. I mean saints, the fight was real. Because I had never looked at my choice with men further than just enjoying it for what it was and wanting to ride this “happy feeling” train out…whenever that would take us?
But this time, God was like NO! Look at what you would sow into your future by making this choice NOW. It could affect you so far down the road that you would waste years of your life before you knew it. Affecting even your children you might have, the path that I (God) set you on…just jacked and out of order. All because I wanted to feel ‘close and happy’ with someone in a relationship. What future investment of my soul was this guy bringing to the table? What was I bringing to the table as a future investment for his soul? Absolutely nothing, because saints…I am not well! ( A work in progress I tell you!) God really had to help me see the light and it took blaring the bright head lights all in my eyes! I mean like BLINDING LIGHT!
And sometimes when on the surface your decisions might not make sense to the average person, I know that with God, he has searched all things and knows what’s best for me. Even when I cry to let stuff go, and hold onto his truth I’ve watched him be faithful. But the only way I could reach this point was by wanting to stay in the light of his truth. I came to value his light, more than trying to play and hide in my own darkness.
John3:19 “And the judgment is based on this fact: God’s light came into the world, but people loved the darkness more than the light, for their actions were evil.”
So, I know sometimes the truth can hit you like a sucker punch, but I’ve been socked a few times too. And I know we can want to run and hide, I’ve been there. I hid out for 5 years ( while I was actively going to church, by the way!). But at the end of it, whether you like me or not, the point is God has brought truth to expose the darkness and the only person mad is the enemy. So what you really are fighting is God’s light, and I’m learning it’s not personal, just truth.
Was Jesus not rejected by his own people? Were the disciples not stoned, and kicked out and arrested for speaking truth? Sometimes, the line has to be drawn.
Let his light shine