Satisfied

I was introduced to The Walls Group by a co-worker and I’ve been in love ever since. Sharing my praise and worship with you this morning. #praiseHIM #BeSatisfied

One day YouTube will have a “repeat” button! Love this song. It gave me so much life this morning. =)

 

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The Perfect Birthday Gift

This year I turn 25, *whew* 5 years from 30! I seriously can’t believe it. More than anything I just pray that I’m making wiser choices and growing closer to God and that I’m not stuck in the mindset of who I was at 24, or even who I was at 20 and 21 in college. Oh the memories and the drama. My early 20’s were quite the journey indeed!

Anywho, I’ve been thinking about how I want to celebrate. This year I want to go to the Joyce Meyer’s women’s conference in St. Louis, MO. How exciting would that be! To enjoy 2 things I love: Traveling and Joyce Meyers. I’ve been wanting to see her live for a while and the conference is September 25-27th. #Perfect Granted it’s the day AFTER my birthday, but I think for me to be turning 25, this would be the perfect way to spend my birthday.

Spending my birthday at a women’s conference would be a great spiritual investment. I’m super excited. I’ve been looking at ticket prices, making some travel plans and I really hope this plan comes through. Normally I would go out to eat, or want to be with my friends, but this year I’m looking to do something with a little more “bang.” What better bang than going to this conference and spending time investing in my spiritual growth.

I’m asking you keep me in your prayers, I know it’s kind of early and my birthday is month’s away, but turing 25 is a big deal to me. And I really would like my birthday to be memorable. Before in the past I’ve went to parties, went out of town, the club etc and that was fun then, but I’m ready to move into the next phase of my life. I’m old enough now where a family and marriage are goals in my life. I’m at the point in my life where I’m starting to think about what kind of woman do I really want to be? What kind of woman do I want to be for my husband, or for my kids in the future? I’m honestly thinking about these types of things more and more lately. Because right now is when I can become all those things. NOW. While I’m still single, before the husband and before the kids; not trying to get it together after the fact. So I believe this conference might be quite the blessing to my life on several levels.

#cantwait #growth #movingforward =) ❤

 

Fashion Sneak Peak: Summer Ready

Here’s a sneak peek of a new component I’m considering adding to the blog: FASHION. I love fashion, it’s my second love next to writing. I’ve been debating about trying to include more fashion posts, but the idea and thought process or still in progress. Until then for all my fashionistas, enjoy this sneak peek of what could be to come.

-xoxo ❤ Alex

For this summer I’m looking forward to a more vintage look. This pin I found on pinterest is part of my inspiration.  It has several components I adore: Polk-a-dots, high waistline,  and pastel colors. Seeing this outfit has me in the mindset of summer already! #cantwait #sunnydays #summerlove ❤

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Fighting for Me

Fighting for Me by Anthony Evans blessed my soul. I’ve been talking to my spiritual mentor the last two weeks about me fighting God about being in control of certain areas of my life. I opened up to her about how I’ve felt that I’ve had to fight to protect myself . At a young age , because of how I was raised, I always felt like things were out of control. So I built up a lot of internal mechanism to protect myself from pain and hurt and for years it made me feel safe.

But during our morning prayers we’ve been talking about letting God take complete control of my life. She’s been telling me that it’s okay to let my guards down and let God fight for me. That it’s okay to be a co-labor with God and that he wants the best for my life. But he can’t go against my will if I don’t let him inside.

I was randomly listening to the William McDowell station on Pandora and heard this song and had to pause what I was doing at work. I’m so grateful how God confirms things in his own way and how he uses even the smallest things to speak to us. He knows just how to hit home in the areas we need healing in.

When I looked up the lyrics I could’ve broke down in tears. The lyrics describe my current battle to the “tee.” God you are so great in all things.  I read the lyrics and they left me speechless. I know I’m not alone, because I can only imagine others who also struggle with letting God fight for them too. Especially if they’ve lived like me and are so used to defending themselves. To let your guards down can be hard. It seems scary not knowing what’s going to happen next or how, but the irony of it all is; we don’t have to know what’s going to happen next. All God wants us to do is follow him. God has the plan, so if we follow him then we will be included in the plan.

Man this song has really been a blessing to me this morning. During our prayer time this morning my mentor said the Lord gave her three words: embrace, endure, and yield. This is how we overcome our inward battle of trying to fight for ourselves: we must embrace God’s word and his way, we must endure with his word and his way so that we can be made whole, and we must yield to his truth so that everything can come full circle in our lives.

Lord, I thank you for consistently showing me who you are. How powerful you can speak through the most unexpected things. #amen

 

 

Fighting for Me lyrics

By Anthony Evans

When I first met you I must admit
I was fighting and losing
But I wouldn’t tell You ’cause
I knew that You’d take over
I wanted to undo all my mess
So it looked like I did it on purpose
You had my solution
But I knew that You’d take over

I wouldn’t let you in ’cause
I’d have to begin
To let it go
And I held onto my pride
Cause I wanted to be in control
But then You showed me

YOU’RE FIGHTING FOR ME
NOW I DON’T HAVE TO ANYMORE
YOU’RE LOVE IS HOLDING ME
WHEN I CAN’T HOLD ON ANYMORE
MY HEART WAS BREAKING
BUT IT DOESN’T HAVE TO ANYMORE
I DON’T DESERVE IT BUT YOU’RE SHOWING ME I’M WORTH
I’M WORTH FIGHTING FOR
I’M WORTH FIGHTING FOR

I’m glad I chose to do
Not what I felt but what was true
I finally did it cause I knew that you’d take over
I’m grateful now I see
This pain is the reason I believe
I think it’s incredible
How Your loss could win me over

I wanna let you in ’cause
I need to begin to let it go
And for my pride I apologize
‘Cause I know
You wanted to show me

CHORUS

The size of the fight
Is measure by the prize that will be won
You showed me what I’m worth
When You poured out Your love
And now I know (You’re fighting for me)
Now I know (You’re fighting for me)
So when my battle comes
My faith is strong because I’m not alone

CHORUS [2X]

Your Scars Are Beautiful to God

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This is the current book I’m reading and it has been an amazing story to read. The first 10-15 pages I could barely get through because I kept crying tears. I kept crying because immediately the words began to hit home with my own scars from my past life.  It’s funny how I randomly picked this book up last minute while in the library last week, and how when I began reading I realized it wasn’t a random choice at all. God meant for me to pick up this book and read it.

Reading it has helped me shed a whole new light onto my own past. It has helped me to see that truly all things work together for the greater good of God. I’ve been prophesied to several times that I was supposed to write  a book to help young girls and young women, but often times I’ve felt disqualified because of my past, or I’ve felt overwhelmed in figuring out where to even start.  However, after reading this book, it’s obvious that my past has well qualified me to help others. My scars from my past are  a testimony and those are the stories I need to tell. My scars are a true testimony that it’s not always how you start, but how you finish. It’s a reflection of God’s love. How he accepts us as we are, but once we come in he cleans us up. He doesn’t just leave us how he found us.  The scars are a sign of healing by nature, an open wound was once there, but through the healing of Christ  the wound has been closed and healed.

The book talks about not being ashamed to tell the story behind our scars and what we went through for God to get us where we are today. It’s through our scars that other people are able to recognize the power of God in our lives. If we’re able to overcome our situations, then God wants us to use those moments to spread encouragement to others. This book really gave me a different outlook about everything I’ve gone through since my childhood. It’s given me strength and encouragement to really begin to dig deep and revisit some of the  hard places in my life. This time when I revisit them, my mindset won’t be one of regret, or shame, but one of a willingness to see the beauty in that scarred place of my life and the good that God meant for it.

I encourage others to join with me as I continue to read this book and share their experiences of scars from their past. I pray that the book be a healing to anyone else who reads it and has had trouble dealing with their past. The book is truly a blessing, an eye opener and definitely a life changer.

Prayer Works

I’m sure the idea that “prayer works” is no secret to any true believing Christian. I titled this post that to say in short, that I today I began a new consecration period of my life. I was challenged this weekend and initially I threw a fit because, let’s face it no one likes being told they need to get it together.

Anywho….

I said all that to say, one of the things I’m getting back into is upping my prayer life. This morning marked day one and I can literally say I’ve been full off of that prayer ALL DAY! I kid you not. It was so much strength in that prayer this morning.  I am truly thankful for my mentor being my prayer partner this morning. That prayer we did this morning, brought me on through my day. It set the tone for my day and my spirit has been full all day.

Normally at work, I can be kind of sluggish and relaxed about things, but today even when working I felt more enthused about my work and my purpose at work. Physically I may have been tired, but spiritually I was full. I didn’t feel nearly as empty as I had been feeling lately. #prayerworks!!

So thankful for my prayer partner though…great stuff. I’m hoping that this time of consecration really builds me up and gives me the strength I need to continue to grow stronger in my love walk with the Lord. I encourage anyone who reads this to find them a prayer partner or even to just increase your life of prayer. It makes a difference. A simple conversation with God can change everything.

Below is a picture I posted to my instagram to share my devotion and my motivation for this morning. Hope it helps someone else today along their spiritual journey. #change #growth #spiritualmaturity

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